An apple in an orange tree

January 11, 2010

Reminiscing…2009…

Filed under: mine..

“Today is definitely January 9, 2010…meaning it’s another year to change, form, choose, and do the things we want to do for the better. But before that I would like to say thank you to the people who have made my 2009 days a best one while I would like to say “sorry” to those I have hurt“

my Escapade at Cebu (lucky I got to see him there..thanks for the memory)

One of the Escapade in my 2009 time is when we had our Educational Trip at Cebu..Yeah! I’m just so lucky, in this age of 19 I already experienced to ride in the airplane and go far such as one of the cities in Visayas. It was really a great trip! yeah wooaa! we eat a lot, see the views from the airplane’s window up to the city’s ground, WTL (walk talk laugh), explore their things, shop in their mall, take a picture, meet people such as IT Professionals, and ofcourse an unforgettable party. Maybe because I dance with DAM emoticon I will really treasure the time, place, and all the happenings I got there. Indeed it was fun! who knows by the years come, I could also be one of the trippers and go tour around the Philippines or else around the World emoticon Hopefully, with my love one..

my 2009 Love life..

I guess it is practically true that I had the most painful days in my last year in terms of my Love life. I believed I had experienced the old mystic hindu belief that in whatever you do, it tends to come right back to you. Yeah! It’s Karma! :D My tendency before that when the time comes I don’t like the person I would frankly ask for break up while having more than one mmemoticon So as it come right back to me, I had the most aching heart as he always make me feel irrelevant. Just take time to read my old post so you will see and realize how broken hearted and foolish I am who’s asking to love by the person who is obviously don’t love me and for impossibility because of so many barriers and grounds. And the most considerable painful experience was that I almost lost the person who is very important to me. For seven months time I’ve let him feel he is unimportant. I just let the day passes without having a good conversation with him. Yeah it’s true this is because of the one. So as a return when the time comes I realized my mistakes and craziness I suffered couple of weeks of waiting to make things right. Those days was a very painful days of my life because I don’t know what’s happening, I don’t know if I can still go back the happiness we had before but atleast before the year ended I make sure we’re ok..I hope so…

 

Well all of these would not be possible without them..

My family, my friends, my relatives, and most especially my last year born three cute pamangkin’s. It is undeniably true that babies are gift from above. Each time I got to see them all my thinking’s were gone. Love you all! May Allah bless us this year..mwah..

 

November 18, 2009

More thinking…………..then that’s it!

Filed under: mine.., love

How I wish I can go back to the time when I still don’t know him yet. All the while, I’ve been missing old Sofia who has never been known a man named ‘…’ I don’t want to blame anyone for what happened in everything but its just like a realization that since the day I’ve known him, so m things happened and it is basically bad..bad specifically heartaches. Yeah! how I missed ‘kuya’ its been past two months since were apart. Until now, so many questions unanswered, so many ways unused and so many words unspoken. I really have no idea what’s going on and as if it will remain like this. I don’t want to hope or better said I hate to hope but if I will be given a chance to correct my mistakes, I will certainly grab it.

Is this really the end…?? oh! how I hate to admit it but I know I have no choice. Acceptance is what’s on my mind now, accept the fact that this happens because of me. Honestly, I’m perfectly doing it, just a little questions unanswered still in a process but I know it will gone as time goes by.

And to ‘…’ (says sorry, I almost blame you for what happened to us me and kuya..stated above) I would like to say thank you. Thank you for the time, for the coke, for the dance, and most especially for the music. You will remain my DAM as ever. Just remember, I have never feel any hatred or anger against you, I don’t know why but maybe because I only want to remember the day, time we met than what’s in the passed. You know what? It’s hard to believe but I didn’t hope for any possibility but still…….I must confess..that’s it! a music. Anyway, I have a quote for you “love is friendship set to music” yeah! Thanks to me! for the friendship although it’s not the perfect word to describe emoticon

And as life goes on….I’m happy…why? because even if all of these happened I’m still in love. It really makes me happy to fall. And I will never ever forget them as I move on. I know, so easy to say but so hard to do but I will because this is what love taught to me. Moving on…Thanks kuya and to youemoticon and most especially to God, for he always have given me time, the time to pray, to talk, to listen, to accept, to forgive, to dream, to discover, and to love……….still.

 

 

Be back for another story..….and thanks to music for it helps and inspires me a lot……fia emoticon

August 27, 2009

Rain by Razah

Filed under: lyrics, mine..

Raindrops Keep Fallin On My Head
But I Think I Can See It’s Just
Hidin The Tears From My Face
Since You’ve Been Gone
I’m So Out Of Place
And I Need You Here Babe

Lord, Give Me A Sign
Show Me The Light
Cause This Love I Have To Fight
Shes On My Mind
All The Time
To Stay.. I’ll Try

Let The Rain Fall Down
Take Me Away
Cause I Don’t Wanna Be Without You
Girl I Cant Sleep
Without You Here
So Let The Rain Take Me Away

My Emotions Girl
Are Running Wild
I Feel Like A Little Child
I Need Your Smile
To Brighten Up My Life
I Need To Look Deep In Your Eyes

I Wanna Know If This Is Real
Cause This Can’t Be Happening To Me
Pinch Me Please
Tell Me It’s A Dream
Cause I Don’t Wanna Feel Like This

Let The Rain Fall Down
Take Me Away
Cause I Don’t Wanna Be Without You
Girl I Cant Sleep
Without You Here
So Let The Rain Take Me Away

You Took My Heart From Me
You Mean The World To Me

Let The Rain Fall Down
Take Me Away
Cause I Don’t Wanna Be Without You
Girl I Cant Sleep
Without You Here
So Let The Rain Take Me Away

 

….Wanna hear this song from him emoticon…

 

August 26, 2009

stop!!

Filed under: mine..

lucky i’ve finally moved on

but i don’t like the feelings i have right now

(kinikilig palang gane sumusuko na..grrr….)

 

August 4, 2009

BROKEN..

Filed under: mine.., love

“Being broken hearted is not always about letting go of someone, but it’s about zeroing in on a problem”

No matter how the relationship goes there comes a point that you have to let go just to lessen the problems that is really troubling you. And it is definitely a way to get rid of more pain. But what is the worst thing about it is that, if it only one heart ends up broken. After all, breaking up is not easy to do. It really hurts to throw away your story with someone. From all the good memories and plans to the worst thing happened that you two had. It’s not easy to do. Because it takes time to forget someone. It takes courage to go. And it takes extreme laughter to stay happy.

So now what? What are your plans for the future without the person you thought who’s going to be your companion? Think of these. Absolutely, it would be a bigger help if you try to get busy, watch movie, travel, and anything as long as it finds something to do. Because if you’re busy, there’s no time for you to think the person you’re trying to forget. Have friends? This will certainly make you feel good. Friends can make you happy and most importantly can make you realize how important you are. About the person you are trying to forget? Avoid the person! Try not to hear the music that will remember of you of that person, try not to go to the place where you know you can meet him/her, And if you meet him/her somewhere, just be nice but find an excuse to go away, because it could be hard for you to forget if you two keep seeing each other. Another is, go out and see some different faces. Wear your best clothes, best make up, and best smile. When you go out, you notice that the person you’re trying to forget is not the only one who’s got a perfect smile and an amazing voice. And lastly, stay beautiful! Take good care of yourself and do whatever you can to prevent it.

But you can’t help those hurtful feelings can you? Sometimes, you tend to go into a quiet dark, little place, where you can play out your little dramas that can be so hurtful to you. Indeed, one of the most important things you can do is by crying, it is normal when you get hurt. When you cry, you let go of part of your anger and hurt so you can feel less heavy. It’s getting rid of the pain. And it’s best for you.

Undeniably, I know all of these are not the easy to do. But you have to. Because there’s no more time to go back were you’ve been before, before that you had him/her. Believe me! This will gonna be a bigger help. Anyway I am not 100% referring only to all the readers but to myself especially, because these are the things I have to do. I’m keeping this since I became one but unfortunately I am still in a process of it now (well..it really takes time to forget..more time to get rid of him). I just thought to share it so I can have at least companion for this feeling, a feeling of being broken (I mean zeroing in on our problems).

 

 

anyways.. YOU IS ACTUALLY ME…

Goodnight to all! emoticon

July 16, 2009

What is my vision?

Filed under: mine..

Just last week (July 6) in our technopreneurship class, we had an activity that focus or may help us find/know our own vision. At first, I was speechless, speechless because I don’t know what to sayemoticon I never had a chance to have it, I attended lots of activities that may help me know myself more or test myself but I never remember it at all. As concluded? The activities which was I attended becomes useless, I didn’t blame it to our speaker but to myself. I don’t know maybe I’m a person who has life but no vision at all. How sad…

As minute passes, I think over and over again, I need to have my vision, I need to have something to share to the class. Since each one of us must have something to share. And know what word first came into my mind? M.A.T.H yes its math. I love numbers, I love computation, I love formula, I really love to see numbers as long as it has formula. It challenge me a lot.

I don’t know if what would be the role of math in my vision but I love it. I used to dream that someday I would have a work which includes numbers or I can use formula in everything I do. I don’t know, maybe I’m crazy because of this but this is what I love.

So when it’s already my turn, I stood up and share it to the class. What is my vision? “I WANT TO COMPUTE IN EVERY WAYS I TAKE” So deep but so meaningful AND THAT’S ME.

July 12, 2009

PROB STATS (Problem Statistics)

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How many times I’ve told to myself even anyone who I have known that I love math but it turns to the point that prob stats which is one of our subjects this semester is not growing on me at all. Is it because I am not in myself perfectly? Or have not settled yet specifically my heartaches problems? Oww…I think that’s not the reason why. I have been giving ways my studies from my love life. I don’t want my studies to be affected. And I’ve done it many times so I don’t think it is.

As for my observation, the reason is our teacher, I don’t know but I can hardly understand what she was trying to teach us, she has a moderate voice but she speak too fast. I can’t find her (in terms of searching). I really wanted to tell her that if she can speak more slowly than what she used to but I have no voice in class, I’m too shy to speak. So I keep silent. Another is when my classmates asked her about where those answers came from, she couldn’t answer or else change the topic. And it’s very disappointing.

Along with, I would not allow myself to have low grades in math, fight for it (myself). And since I have no choice, I chose to give more time to copy the examples she has given than to settle to my drama about her teachings. Well good luck to me..(huuhuhuhuhu ) This is math, so my best to happen.

June 26, 2009

Best Love Quotes for Today

Filed under: love
If you have it [Love], you don’t need to have anything else,
and if you don’t have it, it doesn’t matter much what else you have.
 
 
Sir James M. Barrie

June 14, 2009

Discoveries!

Filed under: mine..

TOO HOT TO MENTION!

LESSON?

DON’T LET OTHER USED YOU..

 

speechless….

 

June 7, 2009

Roll the Credits by: Paula Deanda

Filed under: lyrics

(Roll, roll the credits)
Boy in the beginning
The beginning it was me and you
I was Bonnie you were Clyde
And we were running
We were running for the minute we knew
(Roll, roll the credits)
But then in the middle
In the middle you went and changed the script
Took a pencil and erased my happy ending
Instead of loving you I feel so sick
(Roll, roll the credits)
I know you directed it
I’m sure I produced a bit
So why’s that chick stealing my show?

Baby tell me, who is she?
I need to know her name and number
Tell me, who does she hang out with when you’re not together?
I ain’t gonna do nothing crazy
I just need you to hear me
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
And tell me how many of your friends you told all about it
They said you would get last Friday night when I was calling
Did you lie to all of them too?
Or was I just a fool?
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
Yeah yeah

You worked undercover
Gave her every single line I owned
And it doesn’t make me feel any better
That you took her places we would go
(Roll, roll the credits)
I thought you were meant for me
My name should be on that screen
Tell me, why’s that chick playing my role?

Baby tell me, who is she?
I need to know her name and number
Tell me, who does she hang out with when you’re not together?
I ain’t gonna do nothing crazy
I just need you to hear me
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
And tell me how many of your friends you told all about it?
They said you would get last Friday night when I was calling
Did you lie to all of them too?
Or was I just a fool?
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits

I know you directed it
I’m sure I produced a bit
I thought you were meant for me
My name should be on that screen
We weren’t even at the end
But you started auditioning
And let somebody star in my show

(Baby)
Tell me, who is she?
I need to know her name and number (I need to know)
Tell me, who does she hang out with (tell me)
When you’re not together? (who does she)
I ain’t gonna do nothing crazy (aint gonna do nothing so crazy)
I just need you to hear me (I just need you, I just need you to hear me baby)
(Roll, roll the credits)
And tell me how many of your friends you told (tell me)
All about it? (who did you tell)
They said you would get last Friday night when I was calling
Did you lie to all of them too? (all of them too)
Or was I just a fool? (oh a fool)
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
Roll the credits
Roll the credits
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
Roll the credits
(Roll, roll the credits)

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