An apple in an orange tree

I’m about to forget him..hopefully!

but why i can’t???????

you should be happy now because you hurt me!

painful i am..

I just hope the one i met from tagged would help me out you from my mind!

loser I am!

It’s like a simple thing goes by while the hurtful heart still opens to the new ideas and possibilities. I think I shall never see that. “Move on” that’s what I’m trying to do now! I remember when I posted on my shoutout that no one can help me except my ibadat. Yes, it is true, a cycle of loving which is not easy to face. Until now I’m asking to myself, what if I didn’t ask him those questions? Is this would happen?

Whatever it is, just have fun. If you only knew, I am not expecting we will be together for how many years at least but I am hoping that I will be with you so you cannot tell to yourself that you are worthless because for me you are worth enough. I hate myself for doing this crazy stuff but I can’t help it. This declaration is the craziest thing I did because of such loving you. That’s it; I’m still in love of you!!

hEllo gUyz..

Know what?! I am happy..

I don’t know I can’t explain  

basta!..hehe…

take care guyz!miz u all! 

  They say, when you want to keep a long-term relationship going, then you have to accept many qualities of the other person, some of it you may not necessarily like. But where is that long-term relationship now they say?! I did everything; I’m sure of it! I keep an open mind about his qualities especially the time he cannot completely give to me…I didn’t complain when the four days passes without any text from him, when he doesn’t greet for our monthsarry I didn’t complain too..why? because it would only turn into fight which I’m afraid of and most especially the phrase “be open-minded” that I have to consider.

  Patience?! such a lovely word which I don’t have to explain more because all the patience in the world was I provided. Because of him I learned to wait, I learned to control my anger and everything…so much everything………..

  Now! I had realized all of these, if there are any person don’t want to agree with me at least for myself ..It’s not the open-mindedness and patience all the time that may keep the relationship lasts. The opinion of one from the two is most likely the first reason, such as the distance. How can the relationship survive if the only one believes it is not the hindrances anymore? The communication. How can the relationship live if the only one communicates? The word “believes”. How the relationships can continue if the only one believes it will lasts? And love. How can the relationship go on if the only one so in love? Although the other one has a feeling too it becomes worthless because it is important that the two has similar feelings towards each other. Perhaps, he has the other so I’m not that important to stay away from his life (an idea not really comes from me because I believe I was the only one(as what i want to believe), the nearly reason was at the above but this was clear concluded by my friend’s boyfriend when I asked him what is the possible reason he did this to me)

  So? What more words do I need to say? I was hurt but I have no choice..he ended this so it has to be ended with that….I just hope someday he will realize how crazy and important I am. Friends?! I don’t know..this is so impossible I didn’t expect this will happen because I expected a lot before so I don’t think I will now..

What did I learned from this relationship?

You have to perfect the understanding and caring..simple “take care” and “I understand” can make him happy

Don’t let your little dramas of self-pity will dump yourself because it can be hurtful like what I did..so learn to share it to others at least to those you can trust with

Vacation time..we have to admit we need a vacation so we can easily forget so I’m expecting I would have it on my own

Don’t memorize his contact number..believe me this is the best thing you can do to yourself!

Probably, erase the songs that will remind of you of him

If he has with someone then let go of him

Don’t commit if he cannot survive the distance you two have

Lastly, open-mindedness and patience?! well..it’s all up to you!